i slept only @ 3am.
just couldn't get to sleep. (had a very bad flu too..)
& i dun understand y.

the only thing i could recall is,
during altar call how i felt God impress something in my heart so much.
i even had to double confirm about the impression.
He wanted me to talk to someone.
telling her that He wants to grow her,
He wants to use her,
He wants to open the gate of blessings into her life,
He wants me to tell her that its time to stop thinking so lowly of herself,
"its only when we are weak, will He then make us strong"
1st time in my life, i just wanted to listen to what He wants me convey.
with all the loud music around me, i only wanted to hear from Him.
i was afraid to approach this sister.
when altar call was about to end,
i told God, "that's it. i am so going to walk to her & tell her what i felt from you"
feeling so awkward, i walk to her.
i told her what God told me.
i told her how God wana use her in her life.
& i prayed for her.

i felt so greatly used. :)

Jesus only start his ministry @ 33yrs old. (i hope i am right in saying this)
i've been in church serving for 5-6yrs & my breakthroughs in life is so little.
shared to jolene & pengs yesterday during lunch that i can't help it but to feel sad.
when will i see big breakthroughs?
when will i see fruits in my life?
i am not complaining but its just thoughts in me or rather i desire for all these.

i am not good in teaching,
i am not good in speech,
i duno how to counsel people using the word,
i dun have a good set of vocals,
yet......
God used me to lead & teach a group of people,
He use me to counsel people b4,
He use me to sing for Him.
& i want more of & from Him!

already 23,
10 more yrs,
i am just excited to see what is coming my way.
in singapore or out of singapore.


L.O.V.E for people.
this is the main reason why i want to serve.

off for cg~