Charge Up!

last night while laying on my bed,
i had a sudden fear that i won't be able to take care of my new 'sheep'.
will i b able to feed her?
will i b able to give wateva her spiritual soul needs?
how & where should i start from?
ya da ya da ya da.........

then suddenly,
i think God change my thought completely.
the story of Gideon came upon me.
& the sudden confidence came suddenly.
it was a weird feeling...
but bcoz of this, i was able to sleep well.

today's oral test was a blast!
i was on topics that i was very familiar on!!!
music performances & cultural performances.
it was really GOD who guided me through!
not only He guided my answers clearly,
He also preserved my health.
during the test, i felt that my fever, headache & cough were gone!!!!
though it came back after tt. lol....
hope i will pass the english test to enter the university!!!

seems like a lot is coming.
i am thrilled at the same time afraid.
preserve on Jo!

Tuesday





my beautiful & kind shepherd took me to this humble place for a delicious dinner meal!
yummy~
very authentic taste of thailand food!
though my mouth had 2 ulcers, i just can't resist tasting their tom yum chicken soup! ^^
after this hot & spicy dinner, joyce treated me to ice-cream!
i am not a big fan of ice-cream but the shop really sells very nice flavours.
i had apple pie & rum and raisins mixed.
nice!!!! :)
we went to sub way to have teaching.
there i had a great teaching.
every thing abt Gideon.

Wednesday
i took mc to study.
woke up with a splitting headache..!
went to see doc & i had to take blood.

but nevertheless, i still had to study.

Friday


i was too bored. so drew this on my leg.

let me show you the small cafe on the 1st floor.

they sell very nice tei peng! LOL.

my dear wanqi came on thurs to look for me!
lol. so sweet of her.
we had dinner & sat down to talk.
been quite a time since we talk. :)
appreciate the distance travelled down to SNEC!


nurses' day on the 1st August!
all of you who have frenz who are nurses, do sms them & wish them
Happy Nurses Day wor~ ^^

Sun
today my dad decided to cook dinner.
mom's out, maid on leave.
so only left 3 guys & a girl.
coz i wasn't feeling well, i was excused.
all i did was to prepare the plates & drinks. ^^
dinner time was good.
loved the time i see how my bros & dad cook.
the jokes & quarrel they all had.
LOL!

until now the strange thing, i've been taking panadol & sleep early.
but i am still having fever & flu.
tml is my oral test. crap.
God heal me!!!!!!

i have sharon to publish me to hope perth church.
HAHAHAHA.
a joke between me & sharon. :)
but a great girl.
i think a great sheep to florence too! ^^


::God will break me free from ALL sickness::

Missing the good old days

missing the old times when every time we meet up,
we can share anything & everything.
no walls between us.
when you offered to pray for me when i was going thru tough times
or even rebuke me when i was just trying to be childish.
& doing the same when you are discourage or being childish.

what happen now? :(

we hardly meet up.
& when we meet up, our conversations are super surface.
no longer deep.
so many many things i want to tell & talk to you about
but when we meet up, my lips is sealed tight.

i honestly have no idea y the friendship has turn out this way.
i do miss you
however, i duno how to go further in the friendship.
sorry for my honesty. :(
...............................................................................................................................................................

took mc today to study @ home.
not really very fruitful but did 3 comprehension.
see some improvements! lol.
tonight to start doing compo.
dreading it.......

anyway yesterday had a great time with joyce.
really excited to see myself growing more in areas i gotta focus.
well, everything will fall in place when i focus on my walk. ^^
Gideon --> super fearful guy but still able to give 100% obedience.
TOUGH!

yesterday, i bump into Alicia Tan Augustina!
!!this lady is my sec sch bestie!
she is flying to aust nxt yr.
LOL. (everyone is flying to aust)
gotta catch up with this lady soon.

ok back to my assignments!
1st time mugging over an english test. (super crap la)

::He is my provider::

Pasir Ris - myHome.

decided to walk home.
well, it was a long beautiful walk.
the smell of the after rain,
a trombonist doing warm ups.
decided to take a longer route home then.


myArea


neighbour dog - every morning this dog tries to escape. LOL


neighbourhood.

i want to travel. lol.
i am so looking forward to the end year trip with the tspt peeps! ^^
::5 days to exam::

2 Breakthroughs in a day!

hardly see this word breakthrough in my post right?
LOL.
i feel so so fruitful yesterday. ^^

yesterday woke up to meet joyce for a time of lunch & teaching. (a very good teaching btw!)
joyce bought for me a very NICE dress & treated to lunch~
great to have a shepherd who is single & earns alot. LOL!!!!!! jk!!!
anyway,
had a gd time talking to joyce about my recent decision & learning to stop whining to her.
i was then taught abt Gideon story.
title of the teaching, 'Gideon & the power of weakness'

God loves to do the Gideon...
'The Gideon' is where God takes weak, humble, sometimes fearful people and uses them to do wonderful things...
the best victories often come when we are weakest.


i experience my victories yesterday.
i was ask to pray n lead for heart preparation & honestly i have NO idea what to sing & pray abt.
i knw i wanted to make the time a fruitful one where all of us really come & prepare our heart.
then i began to share abt Gideon story to the group.
& we all started to pray.
there was no guitar when we sang,
there was no guitar when we started to pray.
it was a little hard going at 1st.
i just pray what i felt God wanted me to say.
during dinner time,
Abigail told me that i have breakthrough in my prayer.
i was surprise coz honestly i can't remember what i prayed but i admit that all along i can't pray well in words.
So, 1st experience of breakthrough! ^^

pnw was a blast! at least to me. :)
not because of the solo part i gotta play with jovin
but i knw i gave my best worship to God!
while playing percussion,
i played according to what i felt from the HS.
i duno whether it was good or bad,
i only know that the end of the playing,
i told God, "I have give my all already & i really enjoy worshiping You. Thanks!"
jovin & pengs helped me alot too. ^^ (Thanks to eugene for coming down on monday to teach & guide me!!!!)
& yes, my fear didn't come.
instead i played well.
thanks to all who told me coz i can confirm that nw, i didn't make the wrong choice to learn percussion all over again!
2nd breakthrough!


left thumb: injured. right thumb: not injured
but worth in xchange of the great experience with God. ^^

Jump concert is ard the corner!
going to be another awesome time of pnw!
alot of songs to prac! LOL!!!!
under the leadership of gwen, leeveh & shirley.
singers are jeremy, huili, ron, qianjin, daixuan, winstar, myself.
outdoor concert @ fort canning!
invite! invite! invite! invite!

last night met up with chieng & clara (chieng's fren) with my cg.
hees.
i am going to give my all in growing this girl.
i will try & give.

::I want to boast in His name::

got a surprise call from my poly classmate this afternoon.

MY VERY DEAR GALFREN IS PREGNANT!!!!!
super happy for her la!!!!!

yesh she is going to be a mother soon!!!
i am really so excited for her (though she's nt reali excited as it wasn't in her plan..lol)

it seems like as i am getting older, i want to be with my friends often.
but i just duno how to :(
God place frenz in my life 2 help me to grow in life.
so....thanks 2 all my frenz out there!!!!! ^^

my morning was spent listening to pnw songs.
not for tml's ss songs~
& i come across a song that i was very ministered by,

You saw me
Your glory fills the heavens
Your glory fills the earth
Still You chose surrender
You gave Yourself for me

God of my salvation
Hope of righteousness
You paid the price of freedom
You took a lonely cross

Bless the Lord always
Bless Your holy Name

And You saw me
When You took a crown of thorns
And Your blood washed over me
And You loved me
Through the nails that You bore
And Your blood washes over me

Amazing like no other
Grace without an end
As Your word had promised
You died and rose again


the joy of being a Christian.
life is tough but with this relationship, everyday is a new day. :)

'I will return to Jerusalem with mercy and there my house will be rebuilt.
And the measuring line will be stretched out over Jerusalem, declares the Lord....'

'My towns will again overflow with prosperity, and the Lord will again comfort Zion and choose Jerusalem.'

Is hope Singapore the next Jerusalem?

train & disciple people to go out.
interested to go & serve the best i can. :)

my eye. beautiful right?


this is the machine that measures our eyes degree!

where my eyes will to look into. *O.O*


this machine offers 10cents drink!


english exam coming soon.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
* i am super nervous.

fri night @ georgia bday was fun.
food was good!
georgia's frens were entertaining. lol.
poor georgia had to make sure everyone was eating & comfortable.
guess the gifts georgia received were very good?
well....she deserves it! ^^
21yrs old le~ georgia is a woman now!
go & win all the arts ppl for God!
so proud of this woman. :)




we just can't stop playing...lol~


with georgia cg girls! ^^

today cg joyce taught a very gd teaching.
no title but the content make my heart hurt so bad.
at the same time, i felt like any moment i am going to faint.
i wasn't tired physically.
but..i guess my soul was.

"comparing & being pessimistic will suck one's joy in God"

i must prepare myself to be strong in God.
to do His works & live out His likeness in me, i must be strong.
2-3 months. observation.


justin left for water bap.

tml going to shop w pengz~
WOOHOO! ^^
going to have a fun time w her again!
lol.
so honored to hear that i am her fashion consultant.

georgia's theme-white&gold-@-sentosa bday party on fri night!
1st time join this kind of party~
guess its gonna be super fun! ^^


took jeff using a funny frame.


uli & myself were laughing so hard!

Abby's Bday.
to tspt's precious Hot Babe.


we bought this coz we knw abby luvs to meet ppl/sheeps 2 eat. ^^


surprise element.
her fav combo. LOL.


our dinner. :)


our 3 different categories,

1. Sporty


2. Clubbers


3. Emo



went into snow city for FREE. get to drink @ ice bar!!!!


boss pouring jolly shandy into 8 ice cups.


it tastes especially nice. ^^





ending off with bday girl,
which is my fav pic! :)

a lady with BIG dreams & passion for God.

i slept only @ 3am.
just couldn't get to sleep. (had a very bad flu too..)
& i dun understand y.

the only thing i could recall is,
during altar call how i felt God impress something in my heart so much.
i even had to double confirm about the impression.
He wanted me to talk to someone.
telling her that He wants to grow her,
He wants to use her,
He wants to open the gate of blessings into her life,
He wants me to tell her that its time to stop thinking so lowly of herself,
"its only when we are weak, will He then make us strong"
1st time in my life, i just wanted to listen to what He wants me convey.
with all the loud music around me, i only wanted to hear from Him.
i was afraid to approach this sister.
when altar call was about to end,
i told God, "that's it. i am so going to walk to her & tell her what i felt from you"
feeling so awkward, i walk to her.
i told her what God told me.
i told her how God wana use her in her life.
& i prayed for her.

i felt so greatly used. :)

Jesus only start his ministry @ 33yrs old. (i hope i am right in saying this)
i've been in church serving for 5-6yrs & my breakthroughs in life is so little.
shared to jolene & pengs yesterday during lunch that i can't help it but to feel sad.
when will i see big breakthroughs?
when will i see fruits in my life?
i am not complaining but its just thoughts in me or rather i desire for all these.

i am not good in teaching,
i am not good in speech,
i duno how to counsel people using the word,
i dun have a good set of vocals,
yet......
God used me to lead & teach a group of people,
He use me to counsel people b4,
He use me to sing for Him.
& i want more of & from Him!

already 23,
10 more yrs,
i am just excited to see what is coming my way.
in singapore or out of singapore.


L.O.V.E for people.
this is the main reason why i want to serve.

off for cg~

dog & pengs is coming to my hse.
wonder what they wana do.
LOL.

training to sleep @ 1030pm every night.

Request from my new friend.

for you, Stephenie.

she wants me to blog this,

SHE IS A SHY BUT VERY CUTE GIRL ~ !

this is her photo,

lol. :P


today try out in assisting doctor.
WHAO.
my confidence needs to level up!
after lunch went back to evaluation room.
my IOP taking still needs to improve lots.
stupid machine sensitivity is so not sensitive...
today my SSN ask me how long i intend to work,
manz...i was kinda dumb-founded for a moment.
i dun mind staying for a yr...but i knw my future is wat to come in 6 months..
so i told her mayb 6 months?
HAI.
but well, i will trust in the Lord for everything. ^^


things i really wish it can come to pass soon,
1. passing of IELTS
2. successful application to australia uni
3. to see chieng serving God
4. to see conversions

gotta pray abt all these!! :)

i read a lovely story about the smell of rain. (not korean rain)

A cold March wind danced around the dead of night in Dallas as the doctor walked into the small hospital room of Diana Blessing. She was still groggy from surgery. Her husband, David, held her hand as they braced themselves for the latest news.

That afternoon of March 10, 1991, complications had forced Diana, only 24-weeks pregnant, to undergo an emergency Cesarean to deliver couple's new daughter, Dana Lu Blessing.

At 8 inches long and weighing only one pound nine ounces, they already knew she was perilously premature. Still, the doctor's soft words dropped like bombs.

"I don't think she's going to make it," he said, as kindly as he could.

"There's only a 10-percent chance she will live through the night, and even then, if by some slim chance she does make it, her future could be a very cruel one"

Numb with disbelief, David and Diana listened as the doctor described the devastating problems Dana would likely face if she survived.

She would never walk, she would never talk, she would probably be blind, and she would certainly be prone to other catastrophic conditions from cerebral palsy to complete mental retardation, and on and on.

"No! No!" was all Diana could say.

She and David, with their 5-year-old son Dustin, had long dreamed of the day they would have a daughter to become a family of four. Now, within a matter of hours, that dream was slipping away But as those first days passed, a new agony set in for David and Diana. Because Dana's underdeveloped nervous system was essentially 'raw', the lightest kiss or caress only intensified her discomfort, so they couldn't even cradle their tiny baby girl against their chests to offer the strength of their love.

All they could do, as Dana struggled alone beneath the ultraviolet light in the tangle of tubes and wires, was to pray that God would stay close to their precious little girl.

There was never a moment when Dana suddenly grew stronger.

But as the weeks went by, she did slowly gain an ounce of weight here and an ounce of strength there. At last, when Dana turned two months old. her parents were able to hold her in their arms for the very first time. And two months later, though doctors continued to gently but grimly warn that her chances of surviving, much less living any kind of normal life, were next to zero, Dana went home from the hospital, just as her mother had predicted.

Five years later, when Dana was a petite but feisty young girl with glittering gray eyes and an unquenchable zest for life. She showed no signs whatsoever of any mental or physical impairment. Simply, she was everything a little girl can be and more. But that happy ending is far from the end of her story.

One blistering afternoon in the summer of 1996 near her home in Irving, Texas, Dana was sitting in her mother's lap in the bleachers of a local ball park where her brother Dustin's baseball team was practicing.

As always, Dana was chattering nonstop with her mother and several other adults sitting nearby when she suddenly fell silent. Hugging her arms across her chest, little Dana asked, "Do you smell that?"

Smelling the air and detecting the approach of a thunderstorm, Diana replied, "Yes, it smells like rain."

Dana closed her eyes and again asked, "Do you smell that?"

Once again, her mother replied, "Yes, I think we're about to get wet. It smells like rain."
Still caught in the moment, Dana shook her head, patted her thin shoulders with her small hands and loudly announced,
"No, it smells like Him.

It smells like God when you lay your head on His chest."

Tears blurred Diana's eyes as Dana happily hopped down to play with the other children.

Before the rains came, her daughter's words confirmed what Diana and all the members of the extended Blessing family had known, at least in their hearts, all along. During those long days and nights of her first two months of her life, when her nerves were too sensitive for them to touch her, God was holding Dana on His chest and it is His loving scent that she remembers so well.