writing the chapters

2008-08-28T23:06:00.000+08:00

hey i've moved!
http://joanneloves.wordpress.com/

i like wordpress! ^^

2008-08-25T20:20:00.003+08:00

Photos time!!!!

Subway time with Jeremy & Rayna. lol

duno wat they shy about....LOL.

HopeKids!

beautiful mom & daughter. ^^

Hope soccer match.

J.U.M.P concert! (courtesy of Irv & Merv Kwok!)
indeed pictures paints a thousand words.
enjoy!! ^^

the pnw leaders.
Gwen
Leeveh
Shirley

the singers.
Yushan
Ron
Huili
QianJin
Joanne
Jeremy
Daixuan

great pictures to share!!!!

these pictures really inspire me to take up photographing!

2008-08-24T00:32:00.002+08:00

J.U.M.P was a blast last night!
the symphonic performance was great!
the dance was awesome!
the p&w was crazy!!!!!!
everyone jumped, danced & sang like nv b4.
had 3 singers who were really soak in their own perspiration! ewww....lol.
the testimony was powerful~!
was super happy to see Stefanie @ J.U.M.P too!!! ^^
hope this will be the 1st step for her to see how real God is!
praise & worshiping God under the night sky is beautiful...!
i kept picturing the echos from the music & talking spreading all the way to cathay & ps.
ppl there will hear & follow the music....MANZ!
though i am suffering calf aches now but it was worth it!
nxt yr, it will be super great if we can have in indoor stadium. lets pray!
it will be a very powerful sight. ^^

today went to orchard hotel to apply for my uni.
followed by a buffet treat from me to my mom & 2 bros!
LOL.
the food was so-so but coz everyone was REALLY HUNGRY.
so the food tasted good. HAHAHAHHA.
the time spent with them was great!
i ask my mom wat is her birthday wish.
& she said this,
"I wish for 3 of you to have a blessed life."
after the lunch, my bros & mom went home while i walk to nexus.
remembering wat my mom said, my tears start to welled up.

Mom, i am blessed to have you in my life. thanks for all these years. :)
Happy Birthday!
I LOVE YOU ALOTS!!!

zi-cheng finally has the holy spirit baptism!
was prompted heavily to pray for her to receive it after altar call.
so i obeyed.
& it is true!!!! cheng wanted it so much too!
she was touched that i knew. in fact God knew & He used me.
AWESOME! ^^
girl, pray more!! alrite~
today i experience the awesome truth about worshiping God without music.
it's really great.

God continue to mould me.
continue to teach me wat is right & wrong.
teach me love & patience.
Yes God, continue to teach me!

:: You are, Higher than hopes, higher than dreams::

2008-08-20T20:06:00.002+08:00

i did it again. :(
its time to STOP.

today had half day off as afternoon only had 6 patients!!!!!!
LOL.
so stef, shuyi & myself decided to go & have lunch together @ Shokudo!
followed by TCC to have a afternoon high tea. LOL.
i enjoyed the time spent with them.
though we did gossip about certain nurses, doctors & patients that gets on our nerves.
HAHAHAHAAHA.
honestly, i thank God that He save me from seeing that the world is not what i serve.
i really cannot cannot imagine life without Jesus.

anyway,
this sat is going to be a VERY exciting day for me!
i will be going out with my mom & 2 bros for lunch~
to celebration my mom's birthday! ^^
going to give them a treat @ ding tai feng! hees~
my very 1st time, treating my family to eat.
God bless the time i am going to spent with them!!!
it must be fruitful!!!!!!
next question, what should i buy for mama....?
$$$$ is really important.
i am also on a plan to save save save!
for next yr, for future uses as well!
savings is really important!

pray hard that the stage for jump concert will be big enough for 10 singers to sing.
its tough to axe down ppl......after all they did attend rehearsals. :(
pray hard!!!! more singers, more support!!
tml will be the rehearsal! so exciting! Jump is finally coming!! ^^
the night where fort canning park will be transform to a holy ground!
singing praises & worshipping God on a open grassland!
15 songs.
WOOHOO!
i can't wait.

heavy investment for singing.
URGH. $80/lessons.
but finally after talking so much, i am going for it!
sama sama teacher with georgia girl! how cool can tt be! :)

5 loaves & 2 fishes.
singing for an event.
i want to do it well.
memorise lyrics, tough.
seems like i am so destined to get this kind of genre songs.
.pop & rock.
just wondering......y mandarin songs are not common for me.....
my mandarin so bad meh? i dun think so le. hmmm........

off to spent time reading & reflecting~
sleep early too!!!
book book, bed bed.

2008-08-18T22:17:00.002+08:00

God, i wish i can fly over now.

but with my current walk, i know you won't want me to go over like this.

change me inside out.
change me for the better.

2008-08-17T00:17:00.003+08:00

rip this from a bro's blog.

"If you're serious.. act like it..Don't shuffle along."

chasing after the wind.
in some areas of my life, have i been doing that all along?
i can't help to think so.
God i know you were talking to me.
thanks for pointing out areas that i seriously need to change.
things that stayed in my heart for many years,
i know You just want me to totally let it go.
i will & i want.
God,
pls help me to realise that all i need to do,
is to always look to you.
no matter in times of good or bad.

today uni ess was blessed.
the whole skit was good.
the mm was good.
the pnw was good.
the sermon hit the home run (at least i thought so)!
can someone tell me, how many ppl crossed the line? :)

nw, i am so filled with this song in my heart.
& this will be my prayer to you.

i want to know you Lord
you are a great big God
i'm not very young and do not know alot
just come & be my all

i want to love you more
giving you my life & all
you died for me
you've sacrified
i won't forget you Lord

i love you Jesus
i will always love you
i love you Jesus
i will always serve you
i love you Jesus
my life is saved by you
i'll nv forget ,nv forget
i will always love you.

2008-08-12T20:41:00.002+08:00

YES YES YES YES YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I PASS MY ENGLISH EXAM PAPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i got a 7.5/10 for an international english paper!!!!!!!
GOSH.
it means that i can start applying for uni in aust!!!!!!!!
thank you God!!!!
it is definately your answer to my question!!!!!

was really worried over my results!
fell sick on the day i took the paper...so sian lor~
& this paper is ex!! ($300!)
i know i will be ultra sad if i fail the paper.
reason behind it?
--> i wasted $300.
--> God is telling me something. (something btw me & God! hees~)

let me break down the results.

Listening - 8.5
Reading - 7.0
Writing - 6.0
Speaking - 7.5
Overall ----->>>> 7.5!!!

thank you God for your faithfulness & your grace upon me!!!!! :)

i had a tough morning.
assist Dr Ang without any senior nurse.
& Dr Ang started clinic without his nurse.
i enter the room to realise i was alone. (*PULL HAIR*)
screwed up alot of stuff.....
but Dr Ang is super well-known to be a good doc. (*cheer!*)
He didn't look into my mistakes but gently & patiently coach me.
i kept apologising but he said it is not my fault.
actually.....there was suppose to be another senior nurse to guide me.
BUT SHE CAME LATE. (& super well known to MIA often)
well, i thought i was about to explode the moment i saw her....but i felt relief. :)
i thought my day will be screwed....
but who knows!
my mom called me when i was buying drink.
& yes, that's when i knew my result! ^^

i am going to start applying uni soon.

2008-08-10T20:40:00.002+08:00

Pray for the little one.

just heard the news that one of the 6 year old boy from HopeKids is diagnose with liver cancer.
duno which stage as the results are not out. (but wat is confirm is...is not stage 1).
his parents are not Christian,
the boy himself is not aware of his own condition,
his elder bro is not told abt his little bro's condition (coz elder bro having prelims for PSLE),
LETS all pray for this boy & family.
@ this point, it's beyond wat human can do. So lets all leave it to God.

Yesterday watch 'The Dark Knight' with Zi-Chieng.
I love how Heath Ledger acted.
the climax is done brilliantly.
the filming was crazy. but if blew me off..
I like the ending line of the whole movie,
"Batman is not a hero. But he is & will be the night silent guardian of Gotham forever."
2hrs plus movie. worth it.

the conversation i have with Zi-Chieng was really interesting.
from investing in wines to family.
hope to her meet up her more to talk more! :)

today cg was fruitful.
i love the moments we shared about our life.
the teaching given was refreshing.
just tt have to apply wat we responded.
lol.

People is all God love.
discipleship is wat He wants every Christian to do.
- lead & guidespiritual authority is given
- people-person minded
- influencing
What is leadership to you?

::I will continue to be the silent guardian::

2008-08-09T23:33:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 43rd BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE :)

2008-08-08T23:56:00.003+08:00

i like this new skin.
i think it makes my blog looks very neat. ^^ dun u think so?

anyway,
my heart is really troubled.
i am so tired but i can't sleep.
i was reading pastor steven furtick's blog when i came across this post.
titled: Helping God Out.

King Saul tried to help God out: he got tired of waiting for Samuel to offer the sacrifice, and decided to take care of business himself.
(Study 1 Samuel 13:7-14)
In his panic, he set off a chain reaction of events that led to his downfall.
His intentions were understandable. After all, God had promised him victory over his enemies. He was simply trying to expedite the process and make sure that God didn’t miss His deadline.

I’ve seen lots of people get in heaps of trouble in their attempts to give God a helping hand.

I’ve seen terrific girls marry complete losers because they got tired of waiting for God to send the right man into their lives. So they take their chances with the best available option, figuring they’ll fix him up. And boy, do they pay a high price for their impatience.

I’ve seen couples try to enjoy a standard of living that’s way over their heads in the first year of marriage, accumulating debt that delayed their financial freedom for decades to come.
God’s plan was to bless them incrementally as they earned, gave, and saved wisely…they just couldn’t wait. God’s way was too tedious…they wanted to be blessed right now!

God doesn’t need our help. He desires our obedient cooperation.

If you’re going to expect God’s best, you’ll have to do it God’s way.

wat speaks to me so much is not when my Mr Right will come but the bold words below...

If you’re going to expect God’s best, you’ll have to do it God’s way..

If you’re going to expect God’s best, you’ll have to do it God’s way...

If you’re going to expect God’s best, you’ll have to do it God’s way!!!!!!!

what is God's best & knowing whether is it really the best for me when leaders decide?
I am sorry but God, can you enlighten me?
not out of man's decision but Your guidance that will help me in making the RIGHT decision.

Centre of my life
Let my walk speak loud
And my words be true
Let my life be whole
With my eyes on you
Lord I'm stepping out
From the comfort zone
Letting go of me,
Holding onto You

Freedom comes
When I call You Lord
You are Lord my God

You are the centre of it all,
The universe declares in awe
Your majesty
I surrender all
I make you
The centre of my life
Lord, I respond with all I am
you placed in me the song
Of heavens melody
Your Majesty
I live to sing Your song

I have found Your peace
It replaces any fear
You have done it all
I can trust in you
So I'm stepping out
From the comfort zone
Letting go of me
Holding onto you

This is your song not mine
It is your song that brings healing to this land
This is your song not mine
It is your song that brings feedom
Freedom comes, when I call you Lord
Freedom comes, when I call you Lord
You are Lord, my God
You are the song
You are the majesty
I live to sing your song
Your majesty
I live to sing Your song

2008-08-07T16:01:00.007+08:00

Today, Last night, Tues night

took mc for the day to go see the doc.
finally my laziness couldn't stop me.
went to get mc & meds for my throat inflammation
then to the dentists to get an ulcer cream for the swollen gum & flap that had bothered me
on & off since march.
money spent alot on both visit. -.-

just read finish
"My Sister's Keeper"

the ending brought me to tears.
very well written.
but honestly i thought it was kinda predictable that Anna will die.
however, the twist in the story is really sad. VERY sad.
if i wasn't in the clinic waiting for my turn to see the doc, i think i will cry loudly.
(if my english is good, i will want to explore into writing.)

anyway yesterday had a great catch up with Hannah.
a catch up that both of us were looking forward.
finally, it came. :)
i treated her to korean food.
then we walk around far east.
was tempted to buy alot of things. lol.
during dinner, hannah ask me to go Melbourne and work
so that both of us can stay together while she study in La Trobe U.
she mention that she is willing to give up the advance dip & go Aust to get her degree.
as long as i think of going to Melbourne to work.
honestly, i am very keen to serve with Hannah.
i am tempted with the idea.
but wat if God wants me to serve in perth?
anyway i got 6 months plus to think through. ^^
but hannah, just to let you knw, i am keen. really really keen!
i was alittle lost in this friendship to be honest coz it seems like we are drifting.
i guess hannah girl knows it too.
but yesterday's meeting up really help me to realise that our friendship really got God in it.
with this, i could spent time with her with joy in my heart.
thank you God for this friend :)

tues night met up joyce for shepherding.
ask her abt TSPT meeting & there i got a unconfirm news that got me all so worked up.
yeap, i whined again.
after cooling down, i promise joyce that never will i want to be involve & talk abt it ever again.
i am just so hot-tempered. lol.
then we went to star bucks to have a chat.
a chat that had us brought closer. i think? haha!
i think i like & enjoy talking to joyce. ^^
& finally chieng can go to a cg.
so so glad. :)

anyway here are some pics to end off.

chieng & me

the all super cute echo!

sentosa outing!

this show is interesting!

olden days when TV was on sales. $10 only. O.0

olden days movie cart.

this was how it looks like. :)

went to Butterfly Garden

to Fort Siloso

the famous part & 'should-not-be-missed' of Fort Siloso!

the room when British signed the surrender form to Japan
left side: Japanese
right side: British

when Japan decided to surrender after they were bombed.
British side

this is the Japanese side

is the charts from the time British take over Singapore - WWII.

thanks to georgia, we went to these places for free.
we get to see the interesting places of Sentosa.
after watching Songs of the sea, i am really proud that Georgia is doing great in her area. :)
i am just amazed how God open so so many doors for her to go into.
using someone simple to win the arts people for God.
its true abt God opposes the proud but favours the humble. ^^

[being true to You]

2008-08-04T21:39:00.002+08:00

feeling the heat

i had a great time yesterday @ sentosa with georgia & pengz!
lol.
i only can say is sentosa has become a very high tech place. :)

i saw a familiar face yet this person is so stranger to me.
so long, my dear friend. :)

2008-08-02T14:25:00.003+08:00

God thanks for increasing my passion for loving people once again! :)
just this week, i made an examination food pack for Stephenie (colleague who is studying in MDIS!)
got this idea from wat the uni ppl do for their ppl~ ^^
wrote a short note for her too.
LOL.
also also!!!
i have invited for her for JUMP~!
pray that she will come!!! ^^
*Girl, you gotta come ar! haha!!

last night met up with ex-company ppl for dinner.
though it was EX but it was worth it coz honestly, i miss them alot.
i had LOTS of fun hearing their conversion about certain directors & AP working style,
the different local productions impaction on Singaporeans,
&....the latest commotion.
ALOT of ppl want 一却完美 (part 2)! (check out http://uperfectcut.blogspot.com/)
we were talking should WAWA wana do...
i honestly think no.
apart from finding back the same casts which is not really easy,
part 2 might lose its flavour.
we thought that part 1 is enough. short & gd ending.
i am proud that i had a part in this filming
& ppl think good of this show.
reading from newspaper, magazines, WAWA has the great potential to produce ALOT more of gd local productions!
MOVIE - their dream!
i will pray for a day that a great movie will be out by WAWA!

i nv regret choosing back nursing,
i nv regret going into WAWA to try out productions,
all these, i believe God wants me to experience & grow more in my life. :)

today is one of the days that i can wake up at 12pm
laze around at home
& prepare myself for service! :)
oh did i say that i got to know youth percussionist?
her name is yihui~
LOL.
very cute girl!!
potentially will be our 2nd best percussionist in Hope Singapore!
btw, she is really good. even Eugene says so! ^^
thurs Jump prac was really goood.
though it was really squeezy in africa rm,
but i believe we had a great time praising & worshipping God.
the youth musicians are really skilled & they really LOVE to play to God.
i gotta buck up myself! ^^
qianjin gotta start co-leading with gwen on the 30th aug,
SUPER EXCITED for him!!!!
jia you wor dude!

tonight gotta spent time watching movie with chieng.
only both of us!
i hope for a fruitful time.
God, help & guide me like how You did for Gideon
thanks for stretching me. :)

gonna learn how to do sushi.

::Thanks for loving me, such a difficult person ^^::

2008-07-28T21:05:00.002+08:00

Charge Up!

last night while laying on my bed,
i had a sudden fear that i won't be able to take care of my new 'sheep'.
will i b able to feed her?
will i b able to give wateva her spiritual soul needs?
how & where should i start from?
ya da ya da ya da.........

then suddenly,
i think God change my thought completely.
the story of Gideon came upon me.
& the sudden confidence came suddenly.
it was a weird feeling...
but bcoz of this, i was able to sleep well.

today's oral test was a blast!
i was on topics that i was very familiar on!!!
music performances & cultural performances.
it was really GOD who guided me through!
not only He guided my answers clearly,
He also preserved my health.
during the test, i felt that my fever, headache & cough were gone!!!!
though it came back after tt. lol....
hope i will pass the english test to enter the university!!!

seems like a lot is coming.
i am thrilled at the same time afraid.
preserve on Jo!

2008-07-27T21:22:00.002+08:00

Tuesday

my beautiful & kind shepherd took me to this humble place for a delicious dinner meal!
yummy~
very authentic taste of thailand food!
though my mouth had 2 ulcers, i just can't resist tasting their tom yum chicken soup! ^^
after this hot & spicy dinner, joyce treated me to ice-cream!
i am not a big fan of ice-cream but the shop really sells very nice flavours.
i had apple pie & rum and raisins mixed.
nice!!!! :)
we went to sub way to have teaching.
there i had a great teaching.
every thing abt Gideon.

Wednesday
i took mc to study.
woke up with a splitting headache..!
went to see doc & i had to take blood.

but nevertheless, i still had to study.

Friday

i was too bored. so drew this on my leg.

let me show you the small cafe on the 1st floor.

they sell very nice tei peng! LOL.

my dear wanqi came on thurs to look for me!
lol. so sweet of her.
we had dinner & sat down to talk.
been quite a time since we talk. :)
appreciate the distance travelled down to SNEC!

nurses' day on the 1st August!
all of you who have frenz who are nurses, do sms them & wish them
Happy Nurses Day wor~ ^^

Sun
today my dad decided to cook dinner.
mom's out, maid on leave.
so only left 3 guys & a girl.
coz i wasn't feeling well, i was excused.
all i did was to prepare the plates & drinks. ^^
dinner time was good.
loved the time i see how my bros & dad cook.
the jokes & quarrel they all had.
LOL!

until now the strange thing, i've been taking panadol & sleep early.
but i am still having fever & flu.
tml is my oral test. crap.
God heal me!!!!!!

i have sharon to publish me to hope perth church.
HAHAHAHA.
a joke between me & sharon. :)
but a great girl.
i think a great sheep to florence too! ^^

::God will break me free from ALL sickness::

2008-07-23T18:52:00.002+08:00

Missing the good old days

missing the old times when every time we meet up,
we can share anything & everything.
no walls between us.
when you offered to pray for me when i was going thru tough times
or even rebuke me when i was just trying to be childish.
& doing the same when you are discourage or being childish.

what happen now? :(

we hardly meet up.
& when we meet up, our conversations are super surface.
no longer deep.
so many many things i want to tell & talk to you about
but when we meet up, my lips is sealed tight.

i honestly have no idea y the friendship has turn out this way.
i do miss you
however, i duno how to go further in the friendship.
sorry for my honesty. :(
...............................................................................................................................................................

took mc today to study @ home.
not really very fruitful but did 3 comprehension.
see some improvements! lol.
tonight to start doing compo.
dreading it.......

anyway yesterday had a great time with joyce.
really excited to see myself growing more in areas i gotta focus.
well, everything will fall in place when i focus on my walk. ^^
Gideon --> super fearful guy but still able to give 100% obedience.
TOUGH!

yesterday, i bump into Alicia Tan Augustina!
!!this lady is my sec sch bestie!
she is flying to aust nxt yr.
LOL. (everyone is flying to aust)
gotta catch up with this lady soon.

ok back to my assignments!
1st time mugging over an english test. (super crap la)

::He is my provider::

2008-07-21T21:06:00.003+08:00

Pasir Ris - myHome.

decided to walk home.
well, it was a long beautiful walk.
the smell of the after rain,
a trombonist doing warm ups.
decided to take a longer route home then.

myArea

neighbour dog - every morning this dog tries to escape. LOL

neighbourhood.

i want to travel. lol.
i am so looking forward to the end year trip with the tspt peeps! ^^
::5 days to exam::

2008-07-20T16:40:00.002+08:00

2 Breakthroughs in a day!

hardly see this word breakthrough in my post right?
LOL.
i feel so so fruitful yesterday. ^^

yesterday woke up to meet joyce for a time of lunch & teaching. (a very good teaching btw!)
joyce bought for me a very NICE dress & treated to lunch~
great to have a shepherd who is single & earns alot. LOL!!!!!! jk!!!
anyway,
had a gd time talking to joyce about my recent decision & learning to stop whining to her.
i was then taught abt Gideon story.
title of the teaching, 'Gideon & the power of weakness'

God loves to do the Gideon...
'The Gideon' is where God takes weak, humble, sometimes fearful people and uses them to do wonderful things...
the best victories often come when we are weakest.

i experience my victories yesterday.
i was ask to pray n lead for heart preparation & honestly i have NO idea what to sing & pray abt.
i knw i wanted to make the time a fruitful one where all of us really come & prepare our heart.
then i began to share abt Gideon story to the group.
& we all started to pray.
there was no guitar when we sang,
there was no guitar when we started to pray.
it was a little hard going at 1st.
i just pray what i felt God wanted me to say.
during dinner time,
Abigail told me that i have breakthrough in my prayer.
i was surprise coz honestly i can't remember what i prayed but i admit that all along i can't pray well in words.
So, 1st experience of breakthrough! ^^

pnw was a blast! at least to me. :)
not because of the solo part i gotta play with jovin
but i knw i gave my best worship to God!
while playing percussion,
i played according to what i felt from the HS.
i duno whether it was good or bad,
i only know that the end of the playing,
i told God, "I have give my all already & i really enjoy worshiping You. Thanks!"
jovin & pengs helped me alot too. ^^ (Thanks to eugene for coming down on monday to teach & guide me!!!!)
& yes, my fear didn't come.
instead i played well.
thanks to all who told me coz i can confirm that nw, i didn't make the wrong choice to learn percussion all over again!
2nd breakthrough!

left thumb: injured. right thumb: not injured
but worth in xchange of the great experience with God. ^^

Jump concert is ard the corner!
going to be another awesome time of pnw!
alot of songs to prac! LOL!!!!
under the leadership of gwen, leeveh & shirley.
singers are jeremy, huili, ron, qianjin, daixuan, winstar, myself.
outdoor concert @ fort canning!
invite! invite! invite! invite!

last night met up with chieng & clara (chieng's fren) with my cg.
hees.
i am going to give my all in growing this girl.
i will try & give.

::I want to boast in His name::

2008-07-18T21:31:00.002+08:00

got a surprise call from my poly classmate this afternoon.

MY VERY DEAR GALFREN IS PREGNANT!!!!!
super happy for her la!!!!!

yesh she is going to be a mother soon!!!
i am really so excited for her (though she's nt reali excited as it wasn't in her plan..lol)

it seems like as i am getting older, i want to be with my friends often.
but i just duno how to :(
God place frenz in my life 2 help me to grow in life.
so....thanks 2 all my frenz out there!!!!! ^^

my morning was spent listening to pnw songs.
not for tml's ss songs~
& i come across a song that i was very ministered by,

You saw me
Your glory fills the heavens
Your glory fills the earth
Still You chose surrender
You gave Yourself for me

God of my salvation
Hope of righteousness
You paid the price of freedom
You took a lonely cross

Bless the Lord always
Bless Your holy Name

And You saw me
When You took a crown of thorns
And Your blood washed over me
And You loved me
Through the nails that You bore
And Your blood washes over me

Amazing like no other
Grace without an end
As Your word had promised
You died and rose again

the joy of being a Christian.
life is tough but with this relationship, everyday is a new day. :)

2008-07-16T22:20:00.002+08:00

'I will return to Jerusalem with mercy and there my house will be rebuilt.
And the measuring line will be stretched out over Jerusalem, declares the Lord....'

'My towns will again overflow with prosperity, and the Lord will again comfort Zion and choose Jerusalem.'

Is hope Singapore the next Jerusalem?

train & disciple people to go out.
interested to go & serve the best i can. :)

2008-07-15T21:25:00.002+08:00

my eye. beautiful right?

this is the machine that measures our eyes degree!

where my eyes will to look into. *O.O*

this machine offers 10cents drink!

english exam coming soon.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
* i am super nervous.

2008-07-13T20:49:00.002+08:00

fri night @ georgia bday was fun.
food was good!
georgia's frens were entertaining. lol.
poor georgia had to make sure everyone was eating & comfortable.
guess the gifts georgia received were very good?
well....she deserves it! ^^
21yrs old le~ georgia is a woman now!
go & win all the arts ppl for God!
so proud of this woman. :)

we just can't stop playing...lol~

with georgia cg girls! ^^

today cg joyce taught a very gd teaching.
no title but the content make my heart hurt so bad.
at the same time, i felt like any moment i am going to faint.
i wasn't tired physically.
but..i guess my soul was.

"comparing & being pessimistic will suck one's joy in God"

i must prepare myself to be strong in God.
to do His works & live out His likeness in me, i must be strong.
2-3 months. observation.

justin left for water bap.

2008-07-09T22:06:00.002+08:00

tml going to shop w pengz~
WOOHOO! ^^
going to have a fun time w her again!
lol.
so honored to hear that i am her fashion consultant.

georgia's theme-white&gold-@-sentosa bday party on fri night!
1st time join this kind of party~
guess its gonna be super fun! ^^

took jeff using a funny frame.

uli & myself were laughing so hard!

2008-07-07T22:19:00.002+08:00

Abby's Bday.
to tspt's precious Hot Babe.

we bought this coz we knw abby luvs to meet ppl/sheeps 2 eat. ^^

surprise element.
her fav combo. LOL.

our dinner. :)

our 3 different categories,

1. Sporty

2. Clubbers

3. Emo

went into snow city for FREE. get to drink @ ice bar!!!!

boss pouring jolly shandy into 8 ice cups.

it tastes especially nice. ^^

ending off with bday girl,
which is my fav pic! :)

a lady with BIG dreams & passion for God.

2008-07-06T13:39:00.003+08:00

i slept only @ 3am.
just couldn't get to sleep. (had a very bad flu too..)
& i dun understand y.

the only thing i could recall is,
during altar call how i felt God impress something in my heart so much.
i even had to double confirm about the impression.
He wanted me to talk to someone.
telling her that He wants to grow her,
He wants to use her,
He wants to open the gate of blessings into her life,
He wants me to tell her that its time to stop thinking so lowly of herself,
"its only when we are weak, will He then make us strong"
1st time in my life, i just wanted to listen to what He wants me convey.
with all the loud music around me, i only wanted to hear from Him.
i was afraid to approach this sister.
when altar call was about to end,
i told God, "that's it. i am so going to walk to her & tell her what i felt from you"
feeling so awkward, i walk to her.
i told her what God told me.
i told her how God wana use her in her life.
& i prayed for her.

i felt so greatly used. :)

Jesus only start his ministry @ 33yrs old. (i hope i am right in saying this)
i've been in church serving for 5-6yrs & my breakthroughs in life is so little.
shared to jolene & pengs yesterday during lunch that i can't help it but to feel sad.
when will i see big breakthroughs?
when will i see fruits in my life?
i am not complaining but its just thoughts in me or rather i desire for all these.

i am not good in teaching,
i am not good in speech,
i duno how to counsel people using the word,
i dun have a good set of vocals,
yet......
God used me to lead & teach a group of people,
He use me to counsel people b4,
He use me to sing for Him.
& i want more of & from Him!

already 23,
10 more yrs,
i am just excited to see what is coming my way.
in singapore or out of singapore.

L.O.V.E for people.
this is the main reason why i want to serve.

off for cg~

2008-07-04T21:37:00.001+08:00

dog & pengs is coming to my hse.
wonder what they wana do.
LOL.

training to sleep @ 1030pm every night.

2008-07-03T21:09:00.003+08:00

Request from my new friend.

for you, Stephenie.

she wants me to blog this,

SHE IS A SHY BUT VERY CUTE GIRL ~ !

this is her photo,

lol. :P

today try out in assisting doctor.
WHAO.
my confidence needs to level up!
after lunch went back to evaluation room.
my IOP taking still needs to improve lots.
stupid machine sensitivity is so not sensitive...
today my SSN ask me how long i intend to work,
manz...i was kinda dumb-founded for a moment.
i dun mind staying for a yr...but i knw my future is wat to come in 6 months..
so i told her mayb 6 months?
HAI.
but well, i will trust in the Lord for everything. ^^

things i really wish it can come to pass soon,
1. passing of IELTS
2. successful application to australia uni
3. to see chieng serving God
4. to see conversions

gotta pray abt all these!! :)

2008-07-02T20:27:00.002+08:00

i read a lovely story about the smell of rain. (not korean rain)

A cold March wind danced around the dead of night in Dallas as the doctor walked into the small hospital room of Diana Blessing. She was still groggy from surgery. Her husband, David, held her hand as they braced themselves for the latest news.

That afternoon of March 10, 1991, complications had forced Diana, only 24-weeks pregnant, to undergo an emergency Cesarean to deliver couple's new daughter, Dana Lu Blessing.

At 8 inches long and weighing only one pound nine ounces, they already knew she was perilously premature. Still, the doctor's soft words dropped like bombs.

"I don't think she's going to make it," he said, as kindly as he could.

"There's only a 10-percent chance she will live through the night, and even then, if by some slim chance she does make it, her future could be a very cruel one"

Numb with disbelief, David and Diana listened as the doctor described the devastating problems Dana would likely face if she survived.

She would never walk, she would never talk, she would probably be blind, and she would certainly be prone to other catastrophic conditions from cerebral palsy to complete mental retardation, and on and on.

"No! No!" was all Diana could say.

She and David, with their 5-year-old son Dustin, had long dreamed of the day they would have a daughter to become a family of four. Now, within a matter of hours, that dream was slipping away But as those first days passed, a new agony set in for David and Diana. Because Dana's underdeveloped nervous system was essentially 'raw', the lightest kiss or caress only intensified her discomfort, so they couldn't even cradle their tiny baby girl against their chests to offer the strength of their love.

All they could do, as Dana struggled alone beneath the ultraviolet light in the tangle of tubes and wires, was to pray that God would stay close to their precious little girl.

There was never a moment when Dana suddenly grew stronger.

But as the weeks went by, she did slowly gain an ounce of weight here and an ounce of strength there. At last, when Dana turned two months old. her parents were able to hold her in their arms for the very first time. And two months later, though doctors continued to gently but grimly warn that her chances of surviving, much less living any kind of normal life, were next to zero, Dana went home from the hospital, just as her mother had predicted.

Five years later, when Dana was a petite but feisty young girl with glittering gray eyes and an unquenchable zest for life. She showed no signs whatsoever of any mental or physical impairment. Simply, she was everything a little girl can be and more. But that happy ending is far from the end of her story.

One blistering afternoon in the summer of 1996 near her home in Irving, Texas, Dana was sitting in her mother's lap in the bleachers of a local ball park where her brother Dustin's baseball team was practicing.

As always, Dana was chattering nonstop with her mother and several other adults sitting nearby when she suddenly fell silent. Hugging her arms across her chest, little Dana asked, "Do you smell that?"

Smelling the air and detecting the approach of a thunderstorm, Diana replied, "Yes, it smells like rain."

Dana closed her eyes and again asked, "Do you smell that?"

Once again, her mother replied, "Yes, I think we're about to get wet. It smells like rain."
Still caught in the moment, Dana shook her head, patted her thin shoulders with her small hands and loudly announced,
"No, it smells like Him.

It smells like God when you lay your head on His chest."

Tears blurred Diana's eyes as Dana happily hopped down to play with the other children.

Before the rains came, her daughter's words confirmed what Diana and all the members of the extended Blessing family had known, at least in their hearts, all along. During those long days and nights of her first two months of her life, when her nerves were too sensitive for them to touch her, God was holding Dana on His chest and it is His loving scent that she remembers so well.

2008-06-30T22:32:00.002+08:00

Lovable Monday.

actually today i woke up feeling all so tired!
my eyes were so puffed up.
i think it gotta be my dreams.

i always have adventurous ones.
that's y i always wake up feeling ALL SO TIRED. :(

can anyone tell me how can i have a peaceful sleep?

anyway,
today went to another clinic which i got to know a new nurse.
we became good frenz. LOL.
surprisely we knw the same person!
wat a small world!! ^^
today's work was good~
smooth & wasn't bored until 4pm.
HAHAHA!
i got friendly colleagues!
kinda miss my 1 wk old known colleagues....
so sad when i have to take my things to go to the other clinic...
:(
but well, got their no. so can keep in touch!! ^^
tis new clinic got ppl who were from band, loves to K & dance~
woohoo~!!
so fun fun fun!!!
my heart is all so superly excited that its a new ground to work on!
WoSH!

sun night got to follow up on a chieng.
had dinner with her,ellson, florence & yuhui~
fun time of sharing!
common interest & topic i have with chieng.
music is.
LOL.
she loves to watch musical plays.
TAT'S GOOD LOR!!!!!
coz she mention this, "i always cannot find people to watch with me"
so what does this mean?
OPPORTUNITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
in no time, she will sure be part of hope.
searching more & serving God with all her heart, mind & soul.
another common topic between us, nursing. ^^

i can't believe i miss follow up so much....
thanks God!!

sat night,
another wild time.
we had farewell party for jan,david & flor who is now leading in yp.
we had a crazy time of photography sessions.
& ALOT of jokes. muahahahahaha.
3 powerful ppl gonna lead future young working adults to impact the working world.
MANZ. exciting!!!
tspt left with 6 ppl now,
but God will do wonders in this team.
leave u guys with a wonderful old TSPT family portrait, done by justin

love you guys.

"O satisfy us in the morning with Your loving kindness, that we may sing for joy & be glad all our days" - psalm 90:14 (sms from jan this morning. thanks dude!)

2008-06-27T21:48:00.002+08:00

WEEKENDS are here! ^^

yea! sat & sun is here again~ woohoo!! lol.

haas~ every 4pm we have nothing to do in the clinic.

yeah. i told you.

i dun have a locker so this is where i keep my bag in.
so poor thing right? :(

yeah i am just too hardworking. (yea right..)
this is wat i get when i din pay attention in class durin poly days...hai.

while waiting for pengz for dinner on wed. yummy~!

my nursing shoes! LOL. looks like ballet ones...

jeremy was having fun with my phone.
he says joycelyn looks like drug addict playing bass. =.=

another works from jeremy. but this is nice~!

the look-so-like 28yrs old me. sobz.

how can i use my media interest for God in church?
a bothering question. . . (>.<)
feels like i shouldn't even think of it now.
may be i should just not think of it & concentrate on others...
its going to be tough.
but well, if in x'change i can b able to do better in other areas, i dun mind!
i am just glad God at least gave me a chance to sing. ^^
i love how free worship was done last night.
the unlimited time just to dwell & sing in God's presence.
how i wish pnw during service time can be long too...
i really really love what i experience last night!!
ben, you knw i love how u played 'i sing praises to your name'?
the jazz feel with nel's voice...crap, its just ministering.
music is just a beautiful creation.
i want to see the day where musicians will prophesy with their instruments.
it will be a very powerful scene.

tml Ps Simon is preaching!!!
WOOHOO~!
love his teaching.
impactful & deep.
fatherly person.
his smile & laughter is SUPER contagious! LOL.

i sing praises to your name, O Lord
praises to your name O Lord,
for your name is great & worthy to be praise....

2008-06-25T21:20:00.002+08:00

Tired~

tiring day.
knock out once i got a seat in the train.
LOL.
i experience what pj experience.
the train was SUPER crowded but when i go in, there was an empty seat.
strangely, NO one just want to take the seat.
I didn't ask for a seat but God just knw tt i was TOO tired.
xie xie!!! ^^

finally i did somethings today!
hees!
the machines are a little difficult to handle though...
hahahas!
i got wonderful colleagues~
just b4 work, one of my colleague tested me.
we did a role play, she corrected me & we had fun!
LOL.
but i always learn things this way.
so glad so glad!!
so many things about my eyes i didn't knw~
wonderful creation from God!
i shudder when i think what happen if i suddenly lose my sight...

english test is coming.
I AM SCARED. >.<
jump concert is coming too.
but duno what are the updates....
hopefully we will have a meeting soon. hees~

i am super excited each time i think of next yr!
so many things are going to happen~ lol.
lalalala~ ^^

::when can i spot him?::

2008-06-23T20:04:00.002+08:00

Today

i had lunch with abby today! enjoyed the topics we covered & hees, i got to go to her office to use toilet. LOL. i got to know some of her colleagues~ ^^ funny people.
love ya sister!

anyway went to agency office to collect my uniform.
its just look exactly like NYP nursing uniform.
just tt its has yellow lining on the collar & sleeve.
LOL!
i hope the new uniform design will be MUCH NICER. ^^
very excited,nervous & worried....tml is gonna b my 1st day of work!!!!!!!
GOSH! finally i am stepping into the a real job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am going to SNEC to work. :)
@ outram beside SGH.
hees~
THRILLED.

last night met up with FENNY HENDRY!
finally after 5yrs, i get to meet up this woman!!!!
LOL!!!
huishan came too!
GOSH then we all realise something, most of our class girls are single!
WAHAHAHAHAHAH~ all are too career minded!
looking forward to next gathering!

today while walking to MRT station,
i saw two elder couples walking together hand in hand.
a sudden thought came to mind,
in this world, love is needed by everyone. no one can live without love. :)

side track.

she looks like a korean girl right? ^^

this is me.
the real me.

2008-06-22T23:44:00.002+08:00

i give thanks to God,

for everything that had happened in my life.

& what is happening in my life now.

work.money.treats.grandma.SOWing.bible studies.friends.meet ups.

EXCITING!

2008-06-20T20:49:00.002+08:00

New hairdo!

this was quite heavy...LOL.

quite satisfied with my ever 1st time wave hair!
finally tried something new.
was super bored of my unkempt hair.
i hope i look abit more of my age with this hairdo~
anyway, the chemical smell is driving me nuts.
SO SMELLY. URGH~

tml another brand new day!
i better wake up early & do my assignment book!
did i mention that i found a nursing job?!?
YEAH!
gd pay. 5days. office hours.
eye clinic. start from EN job 1st.
whao. amazing how i can get this job.
best deal, i can do as long as i want. meaning....i won't have difficulty quitting by end dec!
even if application may only be approve for july intake, i am not taking any risk!

THANK YOU GOD!!!!!

new job. english exam.
KIV hk LC. taipei trip. australia uni.
it must be really you. ^^

tml ss, everyone be blessed!

2008-06-18T21:06:00.002+08:00

my grandma is alright!
phew~
thanks to all who kept her in prayer! :)
super relief when my dad called this afternoon.
well, i smsed my dad & challenged him to share to his mother abt God.
i duno whether he did, my i prayed that God will prompt his heart to do it too. ^^
later will call again to check out wat's the latest update.

anyway, its been 3 weeks since i finish my work in the production side.
now, jobless again.
looking for nursing job! ^^
i want to venture into hospital but...there are considerations. hmmmm.
anyway talking production line,
i really want to thank God for allowing me to experience how is it like.
and giving me wonderful ppl to work with.
ChuaMin, Fiona(my director), Cecilia, Hq, Felicia, Noel, WanLing, Ah man....so many!
WAWA pictures is a fun place.
though doing callsheet, rundowns, calling artistes, locations, handling image, doing roller credits is not much of a fun job but i do learn. LOL.

"My smart Healthy baby!" (PA/AD for this)
its already airing on every sat, 930pm on Ch8. babies in this show super CUTE.

the other one is "一切完美"
going to be aired on ChU from 9/7/08, 10pm.

both shows had me involve in nursing side
guess that was one way how God wanted to talk to me about nursing.
but i am glad that i am going back into nursing.
its a super long story so i won't explain it here.
wana knw, ask me personally. :)

anyway, yesterday met joyce for shepherding.
i have interesting homeworks.
the more interesting one is doing a character study on Gideon.
seems like my shepherding times are gonna be super interesting!
today bought a $80 english assignment book.
SUPER EX. :(
but no choice....i need it to study for my IELTS.
the book is heavy too.
honestly i am stress over this test.
english is the only test in sec sch that i fear alot.
reason?
it can't be studied or memorize!
it depends on how much you read & converse with ppl....
opening the book to get a rough idea how the test is gonna be like
already make me very very stress.
but i knw i have a mental obstacle & that is, i'm lousy in english.

WHICH I NEED TO OVERCOME!!!!

i need to pass this test in order to go australia to study & work.
more importantly, i need to pass this test to overcome the obstacle.
so,
i am just going to revise every hard & trust God abt it.
i only can do this now. nothing else.

FROM NOW TILL 26TH JULY,
i am going to study and understand english.

WOSH~!!!
::God, will you tutor me in english?::

2008-06-18T00:50:00.002+08:00

Grandma, hope you are alright

got a call from my dad to hear that grandma had a fall at home in malaysia
& hit her head.
after hearing this, i felt so helpless.
in fact i am very helpless.
the only thing i could do is pray.

i am not very close to my grandma.
i can't even communicate with her.
but i like her alot.
i like to see her every year when i go back
i like to see her wide smile when she sees her 2nd son's family is back to see her
i like to see how she always shouting for everyone to eat
i like to talk to her though we always end up not understanding each other...

Ah ma, i hope you are alright.
i really really hope you are ok....
my friends n myself are praying for you.
God loves you alot ah ma...

2008-06-17T14:40:00.002+08:00

Reflection

last night on my bed,
i was suddenly overwhelmed with bad emotions.
i was feeling sucky & down.

NOT AGAIN?!?
yes, this was the 1st thought that came to my mind.
quickly i told God,
NO WAY am i going back to my old ways.
then i started to pray.

its been 2 weeks since i came back from camp.
reality is tough to handle. LOL.
but yet, i am joyful in my heart.
i believe cause perhaps i have tasted the goodness of God.
now i can somehow understand why paul is still so joyful though he went through such a tough time!

my heart is really excited to see what is coming in my life next.
job.studies.australia.career.church.
WHAO!
my english test which is on the 26th(written,listening & reading) & 28th(oral) july is really making me stressful.
i got D7 for O's level.
i really need a more than 7 grade to pass this test!
Lord i really need you to guide me in this test!!!!
pray for me people!!!

finally i have pack my room.
my super untidy messy room.
soon in dec, i guess i will have to pack my whole room.
anyway, did i mention that my dad bought a super FAT n BIG hp for me?
its a china phone. LOL.
that's dad. i have used alot of weird phones b4.
i use to have a look-like-aircon-remote-control hp b4. when i was in sec 2.
HAHAHAHA!
though the sms function sucks but i am contented le.
i feel love not bcoz i got what i want. ( i am not a spoilt brat)
but coz he cares & want me to have the best in life. ^^

hey people try watching 翻滾吧!蛋炒飯 & 放羊的星星.
放羊的星星 's plot is very rich. very nice!!! 林志穎 very cute. LOL.
翻滾吧!蛋炒飯 's plot is alittle rubbish but the angle shots are GOOD!
wonder what cam & lens they use for filming....
anyway, the graphic designs are not bad either!

ok i gotta look for a job now.
my mission.

::God is my friend::

2008-06-15T21:57:00.002+08:00

Family Day

hmmmm. where is this place?

scary top scene.

hehes~! i went to EHub with my family today! :)

to KTV session to celebrate my dad's advance bday.
lol. the thing is........my dad paid for it.
URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i really really really feel so bad. :(
what can i buy for him? any ideas????

anyway, the K sessions is seriously funny!
sang alot of songs. Jon's singing improve alot!
Daniel improve too! He sang more than two songs! ^^
mum? as usual....push all the singing to us. =.=
daddy sang all his best songs! LOL

daniel shy...

powerful mum. SHE ACTUALLY FELL ASLEEP IN KTV!!!

daddy playing his new toys he bought @ the fair.
so didn't take his pic coz i was singing.
LOL!!!
tried alot of new songs.
"人质, 一眼瞬间, 三天三夜, 可惜不是你, 两只恋人, Open your Eyes"
shiok lor. ^^

then we went to the chalet area's food court for dinner.
on the way, i saw this!

Care Bears! LOL!!

nice hor. ^^

walking back home from EHub was wonderful.
its been around 10 plus years since as a whole family take an evening walk home.
so lovely. :)
my dad is really so cute lor.
he walk into my room this morning & hand me a brand new mobile phone he bought for me.
(coz i complained that the LG i'm using its lousy!)
anyway,when i was more awake, i check out the phone he bought & to my horror,
ITS A PINK MOBILE PHONE.
JOANNE DUN LIKE PINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then @ the back of my mind i was thinking,
but daddy bought already then how? i cannot just coz its pink then turn down his love right?
sobz :(
then miracle happen.
when i told him, he just ask me, you want white? i can go back & change it for you.
only then i realise, my daddy (both on earth & God), really really loves me.

yesterday's ESS is awesome!
i really gotta say this,
GOD WAS MOVING THROUGHOUT THE ESS!
from welcome all the way to altar call....
the atmosphere is so high!
the drama was super smooth! until now i still can't understand how!
only answer i have is, its God who make it successful.
gordon, kaien, luke, samuel, juli, ka chun, georgia, peixin (director), nel (producer),
you guys are wonderful! your hardwork & effort finally paid off!
well done guys!
finally my part is finish too.
can get a good night rest! ^^
had a very very good meet up with the singers as well! ^^
love all the moments!!!!

gotta sleep already.
having flu & fever now. crap.

::God, YOU ROCK MY WORLD!::

2008-06-14T10:20:00.002+08:00

i got a dream.

a seriously sweet & nice dream.

a dream that makes you wake up thinking that it is happening & makes you all so sweet inside. :)
after so many months, this the 1st time i woke up feeling all so recharged even having a dream!
the gd night prayer to God really works.
Thanks God! Thanks for giving me such a wonderful rest!
i hope the rest of the ESS crews have a wonderful rest too!
coz i prayed for all of you b4 i turn in. ^^

last night's rehearsal was until 1am!
by the time i reach home, bathe & sleep, its already 2am.... :(
its been quite a while since i have such rehearsal.
but i enjoyed spending time with the people!

i had a great talk with peixin last night about drama series.
both of us have thought of doing drama series in church!
but how to bring across & make sure that every wk, the same non-b or more non-b comes to church, is still a question. (at least for me)
the story plot?
we want to solve the misunderstanding of how people are looking into courtship in church.
we want the world or even believers in church to see that courtship is a healthy relationship.
guess this plot will take up some time to come up. LOL.
this girl make me realised that God wants me to consecrate my media passion for church.
it was tough at 1st but slowly i see it. i am proud to say that my God really do have great plans for me!!!

anyway, i got singers meeting later on~
really nervous to meet up with my singers!
its been a SUPER LOONG TIME since i meet them all!
God, help me wor~ ^^

today, is gonna be an exciting day.

::Set apart for Him::

2008-06-11T19:30:00.002+08:00

David Cook VS David Archuleta

listened to 3 of his songs sang during AI...
hmmmmm call me weird but i am not very impress le....
LOL. don't kill me for all those are his fans.

well, this boy is my fav.
especially this ep, ITS REALLY GOOD.

but i thought its ke xi...coz all he do is harmonize.
HAI. but the music is good! ^^

anyway, 3 of the dancers for this wk are down with food poisoning.
the work of the devil.
lishan & georgia already vomitted. except me.
IT IS SO XIN KU.
everything seems to be stuck at my throat.
nothing comes out when i want to vomit.
pray for us yeah?

met up with randall this afternoon, had a great lunch with her!
shared to her about camp experiences & what God spoke to me!
i love it when people ask me abt the camp!
there is so much to share!!
just ask the TSPT or YP peeps,
i think they will have alot to share too!!

just got a good news abt LC.
i hope its true!!!!!!!
WOOHOO! ^^

2008-06-10T16:18:00.002+08:00

people that i enjoy being with during work & camp!

my two darling girls! HQ & Felix

sistas!

different group of people!

the whole team worked hard for the whole production!
really thank God for this team! ^^

Adult Camp!

had a great time talking to abby on the way! ^^

interested in signing us up for shampoo advert?

took them secretly. for a moment both look alike.

manmi who is crazy over cow. LOL.

its beautiful.

HANNAH THANG. ^^

Florence & my room~ SO COMFY.

our cups! LOL

took this in KL. observe the building, do you see a cross? ^^

serene! this woman is so likeable! ^^

our dinner @ KL! LOL

the group that went!
(missing sherwyn, florence)

2008-06-09T14:21:00.002+08:00

just back from Adult Camp.

Thank you God!
Thank you for what i've learn in this camp.
simple teaching on cg church but it reminded me of what i have forgotten. ^^
your presence during camp was indeed deep.
you spoke to me so much that my tears just couldn't stop flowing!
both tears of freedom & repentance!
i am really really so recharged!!
the chionging spirit that i last felt (5 yrs ago?) is back!
i knw it! i can feel it!!

i will remember what you want me to hold on.
your promises, your words.
though i still cannot hear your confirmation towards a decision i have made,
i will continue to pray & wait for your answer.
i have see how slowly my r/s with certain people have restored & i want to be committed to it!

many lives change, many souls were renewed.
amazing. indeed amazing.
i really love church camp alot.
not only you get to spent time with people you can learn from,
not only you get to sing pnw everyday,
but its seeing that own soul & life is changed & become stronger for God.

of coz along the road, i will struggle again or even may get tired
but i know this time, truely, God is indeed really with me.
i am convicted of it. :)

i have met most of my objectives for this camp.

a few people i want to thank & meet up;

*Hannah, thanks for standing by me for so long! though our meet up is so so few but i really do love how you are using your life to impact the little ones & is convicted of how God is going to use you. you are indeed a very powerful girl! lets continue to work towards the perfect plan of God in our lives ok? meet up soon yeah? love you lots. ^^

*Germs, though we spoke very little during camp coz i dun really get to see you so often, but i really appreciate how much you always tried to remind me that you are always there for me & how much you treasure the friendship. i really do! image team, finally God is giving you your hearts desire in serving in the ministry! i know you will do a great job in managing this ministry! & abt the new ministry you told me you & jon want to be involve in? i am damn proud of both of you! go n win the souls of the lost ones! continue your prayerful life. plan to meet up ok?? ^^ love you girl!

*YP girls, you girls really rock man! Serene, Yanling, Xinying, Sherwyn, Jessie, HuiLi, Manmi, you girls are really very fun to be with! as David leads you all, may all of you grow more in Christ & be great leaders! lets remember the covenant we made k! love you bunch!

lastly to....

*TSPT peeps! David, Florence, Jan, YuHui, Ellson, Abigial & Justin, thanks for the love & encouragement you peeps nv fail to show me. I just to tell you......I AM BACK! out from the days that i got lost & felt so down. i really mean what i shared to you guys during the camp. i want to finish running this race with you guys. even if we are going our separate ways in the future. i prayed to God about this last night. so its a promise! 6 more months, lets help & pray for each other!! I LOVE YOU ALL ALOT. i really do.

*Joyce aka Shepherd, though you were not able to make it for camp, but here i have reflected & wana shout out that, YOU HAVE BEEN A GREAT SHEPHERD FOR THE PAST 2 YEARS & I REALLY REALLY TREASURE YOU ALOT! all the times that i have complain & let you down in many ways i believe, you never fail to help me & guide me still. you are really someone who loves your sheeps alot. guess it was just me that couldn't make sense of what i was going through. i will love & protect you. :)

amazing grace how sweet the sound
that saved a wretch like me
I once was lost but now am found
was blind but now i see.....

::praying for a stronger walk & deeper intimacy::
::Gotta grow in burden & love for people::

2008-06-03T18:03:00.004+08:00

last night reach home only @ 230am.
had a dinner with my previous production hse company
then to chiong K.
the room i went to is super BIG!

the rest hasn't reach yet.. LOL.

TWO TVs!

the sound system in this room is GOOD.
there's even tamborines & maracus!! HAHAHA!
we sang "Spice up your life", "愛不怕", " 宝贝, 对不起"
amazingly, we all know 草蜢 songs!
LOL.
heard new songs & good voices!
gosh michelle tay is a very good singer!

anyway today i manage to settle my production job.
gonna find a new job now!
will do once back from KL adult camp ^^
i am longing for great time of fellowship with people my age!
the workshop i am going seems INTERESTING!

1. Discover your soul's pathway to God
2. The art of connecting

Objectives: 1. Renewal 2. Refresh-ness 3. confirmation from God ^^

::2 more days to Adult camp::

2008-06-02T15:52:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, EILTON. :)

thanks justin & david for organising this celebration for our dear eilton! :)
duno y but 2008 is a yr where ex north b has so so many gatherings. LOL.
here we celebrate a guy who was once a naughty boy & it only take one camp to see his life
change totally for Jesus!
great sight ^^

i always remember this boy in cg eating & not listening to sermon discussion.
always interrupting CL talking.
a loner is school?
yeah. recess time, he is always alone.
until now i duno what make him to make the decision (during 'Faith' camp) to change & step forward to lead.

this boy gave me a chance to lead him in poly.
though two of us are stubborn-headed people but honestly,
i like leading him.
i guess coz of us are honest to each other.
anything we dun like, we will speak it out & settle.
one of my best armor bearer.

after such a long time, we are still caring for one another.
now this boy is taking a step ahead to be a pilot for God.
taking control in the air while wanting to spread God's love through his work!
1st pilot in hope singapore!
my friendship with this boy is something that i treasure alot. :)

小弟, 加油!

::God, love us all::

2008-06-02T14:05:00.001+08:00

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